This goes for a short part only. It's 11:10pm already so here it goes.

My ex-boyfriend texted me before and he said that he's suffering from an intense uneven feeling for the rest of the day. I've asked him why, knowing that I am really willing to sacrifice my time just to lend an ear for my friend.

"alam mo nahihirapan nako minsan. ang daming expectations ng mga taong nakapaligid sakin, sobrang pressured ako. gusto ko lang naman maibalik yung dating estado ng pamilya ko but still andaming kulang. parang puzzle na may kulang na piece."

I was like, :/

I made an advice. Bringing back everything's that's a worthy thing for you would be a means of long-process. Do not push yourself too much into something that'll cause you breakdown. You were thinking that there are still lots of unfulfilled things that you, yourself, wants everything to be instant.

"gusto ko na i-give up. anyway, tanggap ko na limitations ko. "

 

One thing. You don't have to please anyone. 

i was like, T.T that time :( when that conversation seems to remain hard-hitting. 

Le GUY WHO, WHAT, WHERE, WHEN. (3rd day of 366)

Ze guy, le guy. OMG. 9gag! You're just awesome! :D


Anyway, meet this friend of mine. A very bitchy friend of mine. JOKE! i love him SAGAD! :)) I'd probably say that this person significantly possessed my joy every-time Im trying to find my happiness. He's a pocket and he's a bucket of GWAPONESS. True? o.O Lol! 

Told you, he's PANGIT. He looks like BOBOCHEHE. :D He's a monster, so you need to break away from his looks. He's deceptive look will define your 2012, I GUESS!

When he's feeling blue, he redefines blue. such a redundant meaning, right!?

Anyway, I've got to be serious. I just wanted to introduce Dennis Matchimura. Such a very friendly person, always loving.

I'm totally depressed with his stern looks. Honestly, i wanna slap him! Huhuhu!


Okay. Here it goes.


W have this so called GENUINE FRIENDSHIP.It would be such a candid thought that I appreciated everything he has done for me. Dont wanna cry. Amp!


He is somebody whom I can trust on a 100 percent. I may be on trouble, having this "oh-i-hate-my-family" attitude but this guy, yeah. this guy had been a great blow for changing that means.


He offers me advices, talks to me when nobody seems to be a friend for me, understands every simple mistake i've done. After all, we are human, and we need to accept that everything would be what we want it to be. So PATIENCE AND UNDERSTANDING would be a means of ACCEPTING.


Anyway, I made a blogpost last November for his birthday. And certainly, the reason I made a blogpost again was just because of a certain thing. 
Take a look.

Dont know how to rotate the pic. Pardon.


The one's on the case was his pasalubong and the colored highlighters was his gift for Christmas :) Cute, isn't it? :P The highlighters were given last January 1, 2012. I'd never expected that I am going to receive something from him. Thank you dear! :) Ayoko pa gamitin, sayang kasi! :P may scent pa, ganun na ba ako kabaho?:( HAHAHA.


Haaaay. I can't finish my blooooog. He's so lacking responsive with the pic that i am requesting. BRRR. >.<


I think the reason behind this eraser and highlighter have some unfathomable meanings. 


Even if LIFE is the art of drawing without eraser as John W. Gardner said, we made some contrast with his quote. 


Everyone of us have some certain things that we wanna freeze the time, or maybe we need some erasers to please something. In life, in love.. sometimes you need to assure yourself holding an eraser or erasers for you to carry yourself on the next round. Highlighters on the other hand would simply means APPRECIATING everything that tightens up your life. I think, therefore, that it was denxo's reason of giving these things for me. :)


Thank you.
Thank you for everything.
Thank you for the message.
Thank you that I was able to be a part of the IMPORTANT PERSONS OF YOUR 2011. As it continues, probably, until the day that God has settled our life for a much better purpose :)


That someone who makes you a better person? I diverge with this one.
I do that because my best friend dennis inspires me to be on that way. :) Thank you Lord, for having this kind of friend that I'll treasure for the rest of my life. :)


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p.s. im goin to edit this next time. the pictures weren't uploaded. Goodnight.


Here's the pic anyway.

magkaaway yata kami. tagal kasi ng pic. good night na talaga. Haha. :D

Baby, You're a FIREWORK (1st day of 366)

Just because it's NEW YEAR "again" already (I thank God for bringing us to another 1 year of life, 2012), lemme share you my thoughts about New Year. Good vibes = HAPPY AND NEW. :) 

I'm an OPTIMIST. A follower of an optimist. I see things as utopian. It's because we are made by God as unique and we need to maximize our appreciations for everything. Thank you Lord, thank you :)

I'm an optimist because I stayed up until midnight just to see, celebrate and hug the coming New Year. Those old years, as I am about to reminisce again, would likely be a part of my shoddier times. Sad to say, but it's the veracity. Anyway, no to melancholy moments as of now, GOOD VIBES, hello :)

Here it goes.

I was the one assigned to have some preparations especially on food, OMG Foods! Literally fewds! :D Take a look.

After preparing, I was about to take a bath. I exactly suffered from migraine attack and i just thought that it would simply lessen the pain, but it's not. :( Anyway, here's my picture with one of my favorite cousin, Jacynth. A very thoughtful girl, always giving.

Ze family picture.

Ze Firework.

Now, I am going to talk about RESOLUTIONS as I remembered being discussed this since elementary.

Haha. XD Thank you Scooby Doo for making me laugh. At least, you tried even for that famous-line-of-a-scooby-doo-dog :))


Resolutions: 1. Survive apocalypse
                      2. Find a boyfriend. 

SERIOUSLY, I'm not into resolutions. It's just because I cannot assure  everyone ze fulfillment of all the things I listed. And that sort-of-a-feng-shui-thing makes me utter with a real strong sound, STOP THAT DO's and DONT'S belief! Go make your world and assure that everyone's in there were like yours! Hahaha XD 


Had this been the eve of 2011, I might have said things like:
1. I wont be late anymore.
2. Im going sexier.
3. I'll sleep as early as i can.
4. No fb addiction.
5. Brush my hair 100 times.
6. BE THRIFTY.
7. No expensive loadings.
8. Move on and let go.
9. Lazyness is a NO-NO.
10. Always blogging.


Hahaha. Is this goals? I think it's more of a petty or vapid look to consider.  


In 2012, i need to eschew this and that. (such a word that im trying to incorporate with). There are few things more promising than having any material that you just cant resist to have. One thing is , OPPORTUNITY. So, just as i thought, i need to indulge my REBIRTH even for the smallest chance of having it because we may not know when will our doomsday be. 


Goal: Be and try to be the best version of yourself. Start your day right. 


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SORRY WON'T CHANGE THE FACT

I never find it sincere.
Too habitual.
EPIC. 
Yuh. as always, you're always doing something appalling, then suddenly.. 'twas just a SORRY away. THAT WORD IS A TRASH! Asdfghjkl!%&$^*%&!


Do you ever wish that you should've done that? do you find yourself remorseful for what it has caused me? You do'nt have it in mind that you'll be doing the best just to prove you're sorry. For God's sake, i hate this feeling! :(


Sorry is an apology. Meaning, you're sorry, you mean it, and you won't do that again. HOW COME! 'Twas very redundant. You say sorry, I forgive. You say sorry, I forgive. You say sorry, I FORGAVE YOU FOR THE nth TIME YOU KNOW! T.T


I'm always trying to have my feelings validated for that word, but it's just nonsense. Why? If you're really a FRIEND to me, then you will not be doing anything that will disenchant me. Everyone has to experience that kind of a childish-fight-with-a-special-friend. But hey, I am more matured. I did developed my disposition in life. I just can't bear everything. HINDI AKO YUNG TAONG KELANGAN UMAGREE SA LAHAT NG PAGKAKAMALI MO :(


Try to redress. Try to understand that time is priceless. Try at least, understand a FRIEND.


I still have this distrust. It's up to you whether you'll wait or not. 

Undoubtedly Relishing Memoirs :)

Well, for a matter of SIBLINGS.. i really don't believe that by accident of birth makes people be sisters and brothers. It's on the matter of mutuality, a condition where FRIENDSHIP be existent.


Facebook has a great influence from everyone of us. Even as young as 6 years old came to have an account, right? And even, us, students, spend too much time facebooking. Waking up, facebooking, breakfast, going to school (and if the school affords to have a WIFI connection, ,it's a necessity that we must bring our laptops just to update our account, even phones would really be), lunch, school again, going home, Facebook again, dinner, off to bed, sleep, and DREAM about facebook. Lolx. Such a waste of time. Hahaha XD


Since, 'twas probably 2009 when i got my first account of that very popular social network.. I have had assured you that i gained friends. Yea. That's the foremost intention of facebook, (while on the other side, mark zuckerasdfghj***s*t gained and still gaining profit from users) C'mon! If you just know how rich he was right now :))


Anyway, I am going to introduce my sissy, baby sis and kapatid.
 here.

 I've known Nikka Carcabuso, sissy (center) since I was on High School, she was Rachel's elementary classmate. :)  I just know her by name, we never met up. She has a very striking personality, she's very attractive, i really love her beauty of outside and beauty of stance. Take note of that. She has a benevolent mom, therefore.. she indeed inherited everything from her mom. :)




Same with Joyce Dalisay, baby sis (right) for i can remember, she's my friend on the has-been-famous-before social network, Friendster. She's a great sister. Has also the stunning personality. Loved by many, loved by me. :) a great sister, always goin positive. :)




 and Rey Daniel Contreras, kapatid (left), has a fetching personality too. Super handsome guy, an altar boy. Always there when you needed him, very wholesome to everybody especially to his friends. :)

us!

November 5, 2011. Marked on the calendar. We planned for a get-together. *cross fingers 'twas. Yes. We premeditated for so long, and Yuh! It happened! Thank you Lord :) Finally, I met sissy Nikka already. I made a huge hug for her! such a blissful start of the day :D

We walked and walked with smile on our faces. Yea! We dont know where to go, just enjoying each company. :)

All for one, one for all, the fun we have, the laughters we shared, just till the end :D

We walked-off through Citimart Island Mall, up until we had reached the last floor. We have just took the weigh of our feet. there. TALAGANG DUMAYO PA! :D Lol. :)) Then, our story-teller, sissy, took the first move to tell everything about precious things she had. The Germany, the haughty guy, her mom, and her ever crush, 2pm korean group. 'Twas fun, indeed. We giggle every time there's a *tooooot interpretation of sissy. KAMI-KAMI LANG NAKAKAALAM, BLEEEEH :P the star magic, the KAMI PA PERO NAGMOMOVE ON NA AKO moment, the vagabond guy from Paris, so on and so forth. :))

Kidding aside, we are really excited for the Christmas break. Yea. It happened that we want some gift exchange for Christmas. Okay. We need ballpen and paper for BUNUTAN :)) i had put the name and rolled it off, we tossed the 4 pieces rolled paper (from sissy's receipt). Asdfghjkl! we picked our own names for the first try! Hahahaha. It happened that it's never effective if we'll just toss it, it's bcoz we really remembered how we rolled the paper we had picked before. Hahahaha. Baby sis would just stare at kapatid's paper, MADAYA! :))

Picture taking before leaving Citimart. 

Yes. FEWDS. We are really starving from that one great experience of giggling. Lol. So we planned on going to Robinsons for good. :) We had seen the place of Picture City, so sissy suggested that we should have some picture takings there. 'twas fun and notable for us! Here's the shots. :)

class picture, JOKE!

SUPERB Mcdo! :))

family picture! lolx :D

mahinhin post :D

artistahin post :D teleserye as requested by the photographer :))

Great. We had waited the development of picture for 30 mins. And guess, we should spend that time for munching. Yea. IROG! The LSS time of us! Spaghetti and the mango ice cream was our tripped. SUPER BUSOG! :) It's worth the penny. 

Here's our remembrance from the resto.

Last but not the least, we planned to have anklets for remembrance but we can't just find an appropriate one so we decided to have ballers for good :)

EVERYTHING WAS FUN. EVERYTHING WAS NOTABLE. EVERYTHING WAS WONDERFUL. EVERYTHING WAS A BLESSING FROM GOD. :)

Thank you Lord for letting us have the time! I love you sissy, baby sis, kapatid! :)

 Our siblings.  They resemble us just enough to make all their differences confusing, and no matter what we choose to makeof this, we are cast in relation to them our whole lives long.  ~Susan Scarf Merrell

BUBU CHACHA: The Best Part of My Childhood (A Story of Friendship)

I dunno why it happened that i forced myself to bring up to mind the title of my favorite cartoon, BUBU CHACHA. well, gotta have some credit for bebe tine (Xtine Tecson)  for reminding me of the title. :D


For some reason, this anime/cartoon series taught me of so many priceless things. From my 18 years of existence, it definitely had boost up my entire disposition. Yuh. I feel like im gonna cry for I am yearning from this already.


I am going to provide you the background of the series. Thank you WIKIPEDIA for the information :)


The real title of this is "I LOVE BUBU CHACHA". a cartoon series about a little boy, Randy, whose dog, Chacha, died in an accident and was reincarnated into a living toy car. Each episode is told like a chapter of a storybook, where Randy learns valuable life lessons alongside his lifelong friend Chacha. Randy meets several friends in his day to day adventure.

CHARACTERS: (THE MAIN)
 Randy Rand(Buddy): A highly curious 3-year old boy who matures through his experiences and friendship with ChaCha. His interest lies in everything he sees, and learning about anything excites him.

ChaCha: Randy's best friend, guardian and teacher. Don't let looks fool you, ChaCha is a dog although he looks like a toy car. ChaCha & Randy love each other, and like to go out to make new friends.

I have had recalled of the song. I did found the lyrics! HOORAY!

Here:

BuBu ChaCha, BuBu ChaCha
Ha! Looking where, here and there
All around, everywhere
You will see if you dare
World so full of wonder, right in front of you
So don’t be shy, why not try, open up to something new

Come be, with me, a million secrets waiting to be seen
The sounds of your footsteps will, thunder in your dreams

BuBu ChaCha, BuBu ChaCha
Hey! Roll around, tippy tippy, ruff ruff, snuggle snuggle, rumble rumble, boom shabay
World so full of wonder, waiting there for you
Hey! In the sky, way up high, from the out to inside
On the ground, all round, so much there to be found
Have some fun, jump and run
BuBu ChaCha will be there

BUBU CHACHA WILL BE THERE :D

I scoured around the internet just to find the lyrics. :) This song started my blast from the past. LSS? :))


a FRIEND is someone who will never give up on you. This define Chacha. :)) He is the one you can depend on. the one who upkeeps you everyday, stick by your side when you're lonesome, helps when you're miffed, and the one that you can't live without. 


Thank you Lord for giving me the chance to live up with Bubu Chacha. 
NOSTALGIA is the word :">

Roll around, tippy tippy, ruff ruff, snuggle snuggle, rumble rumble, boom shabay.  YOU WILL BE FOREVER REMEMBERED :)

I believe in GOOD-BYE

Don't know how to start this one. I can say I'm too dramatic for blogging about my non-biological grandpa. (i just consider him as one. he has been a part of my everyday since I was in second year high school)

One that defines and has been the clearest memories I had with him is the 5second-just-staring-with-him-while-lolo-is-having-fun-with-his-bestfriend-coffee moment.

So taking into another account, I was too depressed about my Accounting subjects. T'was like I'm really doomed, I'm gibberish, I need to make myself being prisoned at the house, like this like that.

A few days ago, I had planned to go malling. (for this is my anti-depressant). Expected that I am going to see Lolo from their house, HE WAS NOT THERE. Instead, I saw a strange stand with a name. I was really afraid and guilt-ridden. I never had the chance to confirm the thing that bothers me. I kept on being serene.

Now. SATURDAY. I was really premeditated. I totally had forgotten my concern on Lolo. Reaching out the cemetery, (on ride with a tricycle) I saw a picture of him on the back of the car. I saw a casket. I saw the veracity. He's gone. Yes. HE'S GONE. :( It was never an easy target for me. I'm suffering from guilt, indeed. I felt sorry and I had nothing to do with it. I can't turn back time.

I believe in good bye because I BELIEVE IN GOD. At first, I can't bear the thought of my emotion bottling up and just erupting. There is the word ACCEPTANCE. We cannot denunciate anyone especially God. He's just lending this life we have.

Let it go. Let it be. Let God.

P.S. I will miss the staring moments Lolo. Even though I didnt have the chance to know your name, I'll just call you an angel from God. Be on peace. :)